ABOUT ME

Serbrina was born an hour north of New York City to a hard-working mother of two (by a previous marriage) and an alcoholic father out of wedlock. Within the first year of her life, Serbrina’s Dad relinquished any parental rights he had. Serbrina’s mom later went on to marry a stable and steady man who ended up adopting her and raising her as his own. Her parents then had another daughter, so four girls in total, all half sisters by blood.  This was her destiny, the family she chose. 

From an early age, Serbrina felt different, didn’t feel like she fit in or that this family assigned to her was her true family. Perhaps in reality it was, but in her heart and soul her family was in a place she couldn’t understand. She struggled most of her childhood to feel like she fit in, to belong, to feel truly loved by her family. While at the same time, knowing she was abandoned and rejected by her birth father. She questioned her worth and deservingness of being loved.  So she turned to the place where her soul called, to nature, her imaginary friends and her dreams. She found peace and solace amongst the pine trees, berries, animals, spirits, lake and babbling brooks.. and when she wasn’t off exploring, she was sleeping and escaping to alternate realities. That’s where she found peace, that’s what she called home. And so her connection started at an early age. 

Serbrina tried to fit in and be a model child. She got great grades, did her chores, tried to be the “good daughter” as the rest of her sisters challenged her parents with drugs/alcohol/eating disorders/rehabs/partying/having babies/stealing cars. As she got older she started recognizing her mother’s narcissistic tendencies (although she didn’t know the proper name). Her steady father worked shift work, and when off, frequented drinking and gambling. On the outside they looked like a normal working-class family, tightly packed into a 1500 sq ft home in the burbs of Westchester county. On the inside, it was chaos and disfunction. Serbrina was lost in the shuffle and raised herself. 

Serbrina was secretly reconnected with her birth father around the age of 12. Her sisters and aunt, snuck her off to meet him. She was hoping this would satisfy her need to fit, to find someone like her. And while he was on his path to recovery and more present, he wasn’t the father figure that she needed, not at that time.

So driving her type A personality at this point, she looked around at this family she was born into, and promised herself to never let this become her. She vowed to not become her mom or her sisters. She would be able to provide for herself and never have to rely on a man to live. So she worked hard in school, got great grades, started working at 13 as a camp counselor and dove right into adulthood. Some call it being an old soul but she had other motives. She wanted to be different.. she wanted to break free. 

But yet she still yearned to be accepted and to be loved. So when that wasn’t fulfilled at home, she turned elsewhere. She turned to boys. She was promiscuous and used her body for attention, losing her virginity at a very early age. This ate at her and led to self-harm, failed suicide attempts, eating disorders and a host of emotional trauma. 

With the help of a Catholic Charity counselor, Ann, Serbrina was able to address some of these behaviors. For years she was on anti-depressants, but it helped her cope, helped her survive. Meanwhile most of the people in her life did not know this was happening; it was a secret. 

Right before graduating high school, Serbrina met the crush she had years ago. He was so much better than the guys she had shamefully used her body for. He seemed normal and his family was right out of a TV series (a nurse, mailman and a son and daughter). And that family loved her like her own. Serbrina fell hard and fast for not just him but for the family. This was the life and family she thought she wanted. She married young at 23 but on the alter knew it was wrong in her heart. She lacked the passion for the man exchanging vows with her and was riddled with insecurities and thoughts of his indiscretion. Not the right foot to start a marriage on. 

Fast forward, Serbrina’s career in accounting took off, she made a name for herself and excelled. Her and her husband left NY and moved to Charlotte in 2005, with no family and no friends. It was the boldest move she ever made. Shortly after Serbrina switched companies and as a couple decided to open ice cream franchise companies. This is where her first rebirth happened. With the weight of the economic downturn in 2008, a newly promoted leadership position and the responsibility financially, Serbrina felt the pressure. She came home early one day from work to find her husband in bed with one of the ice cream employees. Her premonitions and fears became a reality. Before she just knew and felt it. Now she saw it live and it seared her memory. Shortly after, they were sued personally for breaking a lease because their financing fell through. This resulted in a personal bankruptcy and losing everything including pride, dignity and whatever strength was left. 

Serbrina didn’t leave her husband. In hindsight, she was delaying the inevitable. She put on a brave face and told no one. She was ashamed. At this point Serbrina had risen within her company and had a reputation in the community and in the company to uphold. So no one could know how much her life personally was falling apart. This took a massive health toll on her. One by one, her body was manifesting outward signs of trauma begging to come out. Surgery after surgery. 

In 2016, on a work trip to Utah, Serbrina experienced her true spiritual awakening. She had long stopped spending time in nature or welcoming her spirit friends. She was driven, operating from her masculine, with a brave face and battered body and soul. The Utah trip, rappelling off the 5th largest arch in the world, rock climbing and facing massive fears, forced her to have faith, to trust and to surrender. She realized this body that she had been given and abused and shamed over the years was a gift she had neglected, rejected and hated. But on that trip, it carried her. She found strength in it. 

In 2017, Serbrina finally told her husband she wanted a divorce. It took most of that year to accept that and stand in her boundary and belief. With no kids it should have been simpler. But her greatest fear in leaving came true. The personal empire she mostly built for the couple and started from scratch again, was about to be torn down. Her hard work was about to go to him, the man who cheated, controlled, and emotionally didn’t exist for her was getting more than half. After not having a job, squandering money on hobbies, cars, motorcycles, go karts, ego boosting activities, businesses that didn’t materialize, he was going after the lifestyle she largely built for them. But she knew in her heart that her freedom was priceless and she could rebuild again. And so she did. 

In 2019 she was free. Broke and exhausted but free. Her body started to shut down from the pressure of the divorce and the stress of paying the settlement and alimony. Her liver, pancreas started shutting down and malfunctioning, her heart had developed a dysfunction and her hormones and metabolism were completely out of control. Serbrina was diagnosed with PCOS, and that felt like a death sentence. It was a condition that the doctors said was forever, and she was borderline pre-diabetic. For over 2 years she was heavily monitored and drugged, with daily administering of injections in her stomach and pills that caused uncontrollable diarrhea. She didn’t want to eat out and felt like a prisoner to her home. Again she had put on a brave face and only told a select group of people. She had to lead her office, keep up her lifestyle. But at the same time, the signs were becoming louder and louder. The synchronicities more frequent, the spirit visitors more often, the channeled messages more clearly. 

Serbrina had retained the coaching of a spiritual advisor in Aspen for 18 months. She helped her understand and work through the spiritual barrage that was hitting her everywhere she went. But she couldn’t talk to many, “they would think I’m a freak” she thought. The stories that played in her head if people found out, had her keep her secret to a limited few. But as she built more confidence in her abilities, Serbrina started becoming more vocal. She was listening to Spirit and her guides more directly and with discernment. She was taking spiritual courses and going on retreats, building community in this space, and being more fearless to talk about it. 

In 2021 Serbrina really started to live her truth. She was spiritually guided to start making Instagram videos, taking more trips and diving in harder. This is the year she also met Billy, a true love in her life that would lead to another monumental rebirth. Billy was in and out of recovery with a strong drug addiction. Having grown up with her biological father being in recovery and owning his own sober house, Serbrina understood. Over the years Serbrina built an amazing relationship with her biological father. She leaned on him to help her through this relationship. At one point she even said, “if I am a true healer, I can heal him.” And she tried. They were on and off again most of 2021. She felt for the first time what it was like to truly love someone, unconditionally and be loved in the same way. She fought for him and for their relationship. 

That July Serbrina went part time at work. The unthinkable for a type A driven executive. But she knew her personal passions needed more time and focus. This time gave her freedom to help Billy more. In December of that year he told her he would be moving down to the beach in March but wanted to give his boys and family the best Christmas ever. He needed to make amends and she knew he needed the space to do that. Plus, he wanted to marry her so what’s a few more months, so they paused their relationship so he could focus on what he needed to do. He was clean and back on the right track so mid-December she walked away. And on January 2nd her life came crashing down when she got the call from his mother that he passed away unexpectedly that night of heart complications from COVID. He got it Friday night and died Sunday. No goodbye, no last words. January 2nd she felt like she died with him. 

Billy’s spirit came in the next day in a way Serbrina never experienced. He talked to her for hours on end, loved her through her pain, was with her every moment of his funeral and hasn’t left her side since. She did heal him. She freed his soul so he could pass. And he freed her heart. It was broken and battered and locked up tightly when they met and in his passing, did it truly shine with love. It was a love she had never experienced before, so pure and unconditional. 

2021 was a trying year of processing that grief. Serbrina dove deeper into her spirituality and sat with Ayahuasca that April. Over the years, Serbrina had sought spiritual guidance from a healer in Australia. Seeing her 5-6 times a year via zoom. She had been telling Serbrina almost from the beginning that her purpose was BIG. She was Chosen for a bigger role in humanity’s healing. She couldn’t fathom this. So she suppressed it. Until she sat with Aya, and then the truth was shown. It was a life changing experience and Serbrina dove into her spirituality even further. Becoming more vocal, making more changes, creating stronger boundaries. 

In 2022, she opened herself up to love again. Promising herself to go all in with no holding back. And with the first guy she meets after Billy, first date, the energy is indescribable. It was love at first meeting. She fell hard and it was a whirlwind. Everything she had hoped for. But he wasn’t ready for that. it became too much. And so they paused it in October. Serbrina had joked that her heart had weathered it all except for physical abuse. She had been cheated on, lied to, stolen from, manipulated, controlled, emotionally abused, taken advantage of sexually, abandoned and then death. What could be worse? And then it happened. She fell in love with someone who couldn’t love her back in the same way. Another dark night of the soul with the abandonment, self-worth, deservingness triggers all resurfacing again. 

2023 SHE has risen.  She has picked herself back up, her faith even stronger, her connection to spirit and her guides fluid, and her heart full of LOVE. And she is ready. Ready to help others who are starting their journey, who are learning to love themselves, learning to forgive themselves, learning to love their inner child, make peace with their past, accept their spiritual gifts, and begin to dream and recreate their new lives and destiny. She is called to be of service. She is called to lead in a bigger way, in a more purposeful way. She is called to help others heal through their own willpower. She has risen. She has risen through it all, blow by blow, after each knock down, each set back, each relationship, each loss. She has risen and is stronger, softer, more loving, more forgiving, more truthful, more vulnerable, more authentic. She is real, no filters, no masks, no makeup, no pretenses. What you see is what you get. She is divinely guided at all times and wants to help others on their journey. 

Her modality doesn’t have a token name. There are no fancy certifications next to her name. It’s called life experience.  It’s her energy, her love, her experiences, her ability to see, to feel, to hear the unspoken. And she is here to help you. Not because she has to, but because she wants to and is called to. Come join her on this journey called life and ignite yourself. Burn away the facade and let your inner light show. Awaken your senses, your connection, your faith, your spirit, using tools, the elements and a community of like-minded friends. You are worth it and you deserve it. We all are. 

Serbrina is here to help, coach, mentor, support, motivate, inspire and share her wisdom from her journey and the ethers above. Join her and free yourself. Ignite, SHE has risen.